Lastnight I had a dream that I was dating this guy, got close to his family and during the dream, I got engaged. I had no clue who this guy was…what the dream meant….but I could see my ring so vividly…even now. It was not a traditional ring with a diamond in it….it was silver with a heart and stones on the inside. I loved the feeling of looking down at it and knowing I had a partner…that I was going to be married. It was probably just a crazy dream but in the event there’s a possibility it is a sign of what’s to come….I can’t help but have a smile on my face because of that.
Read holding a flashlight or play Words with Friends on my iPhone.
Today was one of those days where I was so thankful for the people in my life. For the past few days, I’d been nervous about finding out about a job. My morning started out fine. Various thoughts went in and out of my head that ranged from the job to what I was currently working on to all the laundry I need to do before packing for my upcoming trip (I leave tomorrow for Baltimore). A friend popped her head into my office and asked, “so, have you heard anything?” I said no but that I was going to be calling soon. I just kept telling myself, ‘no news is good news.’ Or so I thought. Just a few minutes before thinking of making the call, my cell phone goes off. I glance at the screen and recognize the number…this was the moment. A few moments later, I sat in my chair with the door closed….stunned and dissapointed that I didn’t get the position. I knew it wouldn’t be long before I got that lump in my throat and my eyes would well up. I am a girl after all…crying is a thing for us. Trust me, I hate it. The same friend from before was just right across the hall; I caught her eye and told her I didn’t get it. She said she was sorry and tried to reassure me by saying this simply means there is something else out there for me. I went about the morning, trying to stay distracted (and tear-free) by busying myself with multiple projects. A short time later, I had another friend come into my office. She came in to thank me for the birthday card I gave her and we got chatting. I couldn’t help it….the tears just overwhelmed me. She closed the door and I filled her in. Getting this job would’ve meant being home and closer to my family…mainly readily available when my Dad has surgery in a few weeks. This friend was exactly what I ended up needing…..she is one of the most caring and sweetest people I’ve ever met. She went over things with me, particularly how I could improve my confidence and how I could do a better job with my current position. She just wants the best for me and was there to snap me back to reality. Our chat ended with a hug and my thanking her for caring. I went home a little while later for lunch and to just clear my head. I came back to the office refreshed and thankfully had no more emotional moments throughout the afternooon.
The afternoon passed quickly. 4:30 came and I shut down my computer and packed up to leave. As soon as my door shut, my friend bolted from her chair (she offices right across from me) and met me outside her door. The first words out of her mouth were, “Are you okay? ” I said yes and she asked if I was sure. She is the type of friend who could have a million things going on but when there’s a personal crisis (i.e. friend has crazy emotions), she drops everything and gives you that “how can I help” look). I love her for that. I hugged her goodbye and I was off. I turned back toward her office and smiled. Things may not have turned out the way I had hoped today but I am surrounded by great friends. I know, even if I don’t always understand or am too impatient to trust in it, that God has a plan for me that is in my best interest.
For the next few days, I’ll be all about having fun with my family. Jobs may come and go….in the end, it will all work out. Friends give you that ability to take a deep breath and help you see the silver lining….they pull you up and give you that gentle nudge. True friends are the stability you need in an unstable world. I am so lucky to have those type of friends.
Random thoughts running through my head…things I have to do…worrying about the future…it's mostly annoying. Sometimes it's things I have to do and I'll make a run for post-its. Thank God iPhones have a built-in notepad. God bless technology….can de-clutter my thoughts from comfort of my own bed.